I am brainstorming ways to make a difference in this world.
I want to see a world always including everyone.
What would that be like?
I got to learn the history of my people, non speaking autistics. The more I know the more I will understand. Might make me sad. I can’t hide from the truth. I will need time to learn and a good place to start.
Could anyone suggest films or books?
I have been struggling with food for about five years. My life has been so hard because of this. I have always loved food. I am a huge foodie. Except now food has become mixed up with stress. When I am calm I can eat any food I want. But when I am stressing I am only able to have pasta. I don’t even like the pasta but it makes me feel calm. I don’t understand my stupid brain.
I had waffles for breakfast.
Loved it.
I need to open my pasta brain and find different foods so I don’t get stuck.
I listened to Amanda Gorman’s Ted Talk today she inspired my Pasta Brain and inspired me to write more.
I have to go now Pasta Brain can I take a shower so stress now make have a good life now Make have good food life have calm and hard like to go live hospital like to go live dad now like to go school like to have hike calm hike like calm now go make calm now love it life can ignore hard now life can ignore calm now life can ignore me now life can ignore you now life can ignore God now Pasta Brain Right Now life can ignore food now life can ignore love now life can ignore hate now life can ignore balm now life can ignore stress now These thoughts swirl twirl and tangle
I keep speaking all done when I mean love to get to work. I would really like to be doing piano lessons. I would really like to be doing lessons for school and helping with chores. But instead I shout ALL DONE and get stressed over not being able to control my body. Make me get to work I shout. Make me have a good life. But nobody listens. It is all in my head. This makes me so frustrated. I so like to be learning and busy. I have big plans for my life. My life can be so full of amazing stuff.
Lip Service – by this I mean my mouth speaking but not what I want it to, gets me hopeless. Lip Service ruins my plans. If mom ignores my Lip Service then life would be good. I keep telling mom I love to learn. I have to hope she will figure out how to get my body to cooperate.
Life is love…and I am here to kindly share my story to help you understand autism.
Life Fries and Autism 